Three weeks ago Marian Turnbull died. A long-term member of L'Arche Cape Breton, Marian had her share of struggles - institutionalization at an early age, complex mental health concerns, endless health crises. She was born at a time when people with disabilities were a source of shame, an embarrassment, unable to attend school and denied fundamental human rights. But Marian was a survivor. She not only endured her life, but rejoiced in it. In her 21 years at L'Arche Cape Breton, she transformed many lives.
Marian died the way we all should - at home, peacefully, surrounded by faithful friends who ushered her into eternal life with songs and laughter and tears. During the days when we sat vigil with her as she died, and in the days that followed around her wake and funeral, there was a palpable sense of grace in the air. The Chapel was where we held visitation, and it was full of pictures of Marian, candles, her rocking chair and cat blanket, even her famous sunglasses sitting on a junk of wood from the Thomas House property. To look at Marian's ashes resting inside the teakettle (she loved a good cup of tea!) in the midst of so many memories of her was precious.
There was also the moment when a close friend of one of Marian's housemates came to pay his respects at the wake. He arrived awkwardly and seemed ill-at-ease, apologizing for not wearing a suit, expressing over and over his disbelief at Marian's passing. As he was leaving the wake, he revealed that he "never goes to these things". In fact, it had been 25 years since he attended a wake. He'd had a terrible experience at a particularly tragic wake in the early 1980s and had promised himself he would never attend another. His brother and his sister had passed away in the intervening years and he had not been able to bring himself to go to their wakes. But he said he "wouldn't be able to live with himself" if he didn't come to pay his respects to Marian Turnbull. Truly, there will never be another woman like her.
There is much to say about Marian, and about her life and death. To scratch the surface, here is the eulogy delivered at her funeral by Mary MacDougall, one of Marian's closest friends.
Marian Frances Turnbull
November 18, 1939 - April 23, 2008
"Aah..'pon a time…" was often the opening line for one of Marian’s stories, of which she had many. I’ve tried to analyze the basis of her tales. There was always a damsel in distress who, more often than not, wound up driving her bicycle into the rose bushes only to be rescued by Papa Turnbull. Sounds like a Daddy’s girl to me. Marian was very family rooted. She would speak often of her mama and papa and her beloved Rosemary. Her continued ties to industrial Cape Breton were very evident especially when she would assume the position for her long spins to Dominion.
Marian arrived at L’Arche Cape Breton in December 1988 bringing with her new life to the community. The early years weren’t easy. There were lots of adjustments and from all reports never enough sleep. Marian was in the Community about ten years when I first made her acquaintance. Sick with pneumonia on that first day, the Turnbull spent the day with her head in my lap.. It is one of life ironies then, that she spent the last day of her life with her head in my lap.
Marian had this wonderful capacity of teaching others about life’s hard lessons but also she showed us that it is okay to act foolish sometimes, to laugh at ourselves and to celebrate one thing or another 24-7. One of the biggest lessons Marian passed along is that vulnerability isn’t a weakness. She showed me that vulnerability is the ability to accept help when we need it and even more importantly, to accept help sometimes even when we don’t. It is in the receiving that we are often granted grace.
The Turnbull’s faithfulness to her family and friends would often be witnessed in gentle blessings on one’s head, often followed by "Nice Doggie" or the need to take a spin to see her sister, Rosemary, and to share a meal of her favourite things, which would usually be followed by her "Scotch" puddin' or ice cream.
I don’t think Marian ever said anything that wasn’t true. It was her delivery that often got her into hot water! In her later years, she got into the habit of mumbling under her breath so low, that only those closest to her could her some scathing derogatory remark or colorful phrase. This would often prompt us to say "What did you say, Marian?" Very quickly she would reply, as only she could "I likes ya". Needless to say, that would be the end of the conversation.
I’m sure many of you would disagree with me when I say I found Marian to be a patient woman. In conversations the last couple of days we estimated that Marian, in her 20 years at L’Arche, would probably have lived with at least 60 assistants and worked with many day staff over that time. Patience...think of the many welcomes, showing people the ropes, and the eventual goodbyes. This story from the Thomas House storybook is a good illustration of how patient Marian could be when she wanted something.
Marian had spent the day at home asking for a milkshake. "I wants a shake!" The assistant with her that day said, "Yeah and I want a Ferrari! Can you give me a Ferrari, Marian?"
Marian says, "Yeah!"
The Assistant said, "and I want a hot guy. Can you get me a hot guy?"
Marian says, "Yeah!"
The Assistant said, "Where is he?"
Marian says, He's in the Shake!"
Feisty is another word that comes to mind when I think of Marian. If she found the current situation unacceptable and thought that she might be able to negotiate a better deal, she would give it her best try. I think it must have been years of living in a Union Town. She would often wait until late in the workday before in a very plaintive voice, say, "Dougall, bake me something good." Well at 3p.m. the options were often limited, especially is if she wanted a 'Scotch pie'. I’d feel so bad..I’d make grand promises of what we would accomplish the next day..and you can be sure she would remind me.
Marian had the profound ability of naming her friends. Some appropriately and some not so…..Father Ray told the story of the early days when the two men in the Community were Tom Gunn, Community Founder and himself, Pastoral Minister. Marian would often refer to Tom as The Doctor but it must have sounded very rock starish when she called Fr. Ray.. Tommyray!
So many names...there was Mary Bomber, always 'The Little One', Jenn as 'Curly Power', Cathy MacMillan known as 'Miller'. Father Patrick O’Neil when he was an assistant here always got 'Patsy Gillis'. A lovely young assistant who came to us from Japan was known as 'Keiko Coyote from Ukee Ukee', and my own Turnbull baptism, when I henceforth became 'Ah, Dougall’.
In 1998, Marian along with Cathy and Mary Bomber founded Thomas House, then known as Stareghan. It was there that the Turnbull found her heaven on earth. The house, with its peaceful atmosphere and the welcoming of Sandy, was soon turned into a home and life began anew.
There were long spins to work and community events but Marian suffered through..Ha Ha! As long as the big wheels were rolling, Marian was happy. It was to be at Thomas House that Marian welcomed Root Beer and Benny, the now famous one-eyed cat. It has often been said that if the cats wanted to play they went to Mary Bomber. If they wanted some lovin’ they went to Turnbull. She enjoyed the company of animals, I think sensing unconditional love, acceptance and warm furry bodies.
Sometimes after a trying day of Marian’s crying to see our family dog, Emma Jane, away we would head to my house after work. In a high state of excitement at seeing Marian the dog would jump to lick her only to be greeted with "Get out of the way dog!" Once settled in, the two were rarely separated through the visit.
She was happy with her work, too. When we opened the retirement program, called the Siesta Club, there was never a thought that Marian was ready to slow down. She wanted to continue with her daily schedule at Caper Club and the Hope Chest. Again from the Thomas House Story Book:
Marian: I wants to go to the Club.
Katrin: Well, today is your day for the Hope Chest!
Marian: The Hope Chest wants me to go to the Club.
So many stories, so little time - and no censor equipment!
Silas said it so well this week when he wrote that Marian lived her life intensely and touched people deeply. Her laughter and tears, her songs and her stories made life with her rich and full.
Marian you have created your own dynamic legacy of love, spirit, family, faithfulness, joy and sorrow. It has truly been a privilege to be a part of your life. That many of us were granted the joy of being with you as you entered into the fullness of life through your death, is one of your greatest gifts to us.
As the dove of life that represents all that you are now, soars to heaven, it is time for you to rest and for you to know that the world and especially L’Arche Cape Breton, is a much better place because you, Marian Frances Turnbull, were in it. You were a good woman and a loyal and dear friend to the end. We Love Ya!
Our Fa Father
Chart in Heaven
Thy Name
King Come
Daily Bread
His Tresses
Tintation
Anen
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
A man of peace
Last night at Community Night we watched a video of a short talk by Jean Vanier, founder of L'Arche. He gave the talk at the CBU Centre for Mikm'aq Studies during a visit to Cape Breton in 1997. Eddie was tucked snugly under his arm, nodding sagely at all the right moments, for the duration of the talk.
No matter how many times I hear Jean, and no matter how many times he repeats the same stories, wanders off on the same tangents, or makes the same points, I am touched by his wisdom, simplicity, and presence. Reading his recently published memoir, "Our Life Together", I cannot help but be inspired by his humility and conviction. He is utterly convinced of his own weakness and fallibility, he knows he does not have the answers. Yet he is equally convinced that the message he speaks about the power of weakness and the call to be a peacemaker can and will change the world. He sees every day the horrors of "civilized" society, yet he remains deeply moved by the beauty of people and the grace of humanity.
In the few minutes he spoke at CBU, he talked about what it means to love. To love, he said, is not to do things for people. To love is to reveal to people their value, to reveal to them that they are important and that they have something to offer.
To love is also to understand, he said. To understand the hurt and anger and broken hearts of our people and in that understanding to help people heal.
And to love is also to empower, to empower people simply to "become". To become fully human, to become who God has called them to be.
The richness of our world, he said, is not in dollar bills but in human hearts, and we need to reveal these riches to the world. We cannot do it alone, but together we can do beautiful things.
No matter how many times I hear Jean, and no matter how many times he repeats the same stories, wanders off on the same tangents, or makes the same points, I am touched by his wisdom, simplicity, and presence. Reading his recently published memoir, "Our Life Together", I cannot help but be inspired by his humility and conviction. He is utterly convinced of his own weakness and fallibility, he knows he does not have the answers. Yet he is equally convinced that the message he speaks about the power of weakness and the call to be a peacemaker can and will change the world. He sees every day the horrors of "civilized" society, yet he remains deeply moved by the beauty of people and the grace of humanity.
In the few minutes he spoke at CBU, he talked about what it means to love. To love, he said, is not to do things for people. To love is to reveal to people their value, to reveal to them that they are important and that they have something to offer.
To love is also to understand, he said. To understand the hurt and anger and broken hearts of our people and in that understanding to help people heal.
And to love is also to empower, to empower people simply to "become". To become fully human, to become who God has called them to be.
The richness of our world, he said, is not in dollar bills but in human hearts, and we need to reveal these riches to the world. We cannot do it alone, but together we can do beautiful things.
Friday, February 22, 2008
Smile, I'll pay for the cracks!
Yesterday Mike came home from the hospital. At only 45 years, Michael already seems like an old man. In a sense, he always has. He moves excruciatingly slowly, with a awkward sideways gait; he speaks quietly and slowly, carefully deliberating on every word; he enjoys an old time fiddle tune and a nap in the easy chair; he keeps his grey hair short and tidy and likes to dress up and treat the ladies to a drink.
But Mike got even older in a hurry back in December, his deteriorating hips all of a sudden failing him, pneumonia refusing to let go its grip, sleep overtaking him between bites of lunch. Then falls during the night, even seizures and mini-strokes. He went by ambulance to the hospital on January 5th and most of us were pretty sure he was leaving for the last time.
We sat vigil by his bedside in the hospital for weeks as he underwent test after test, unable to eat or talk or even wake up, his respirations dropping to five or six a minute at times. We prepared ourselves and everyone in the community for what we felt was coming.
But what was coming wasn't what we expected. Michael slowly began to gain ground, first trying to talk a little, then laugh, then eat, and finally even hold our arms and walk around. So then the fight was on to convince the people with power that Mike should come home, that we could, and wanted to, manage his care. That this was where he belonged.
It was a long slow process that culminated yesterday with his return. When I walked into the house to visit him after he arrived I wasn't prepared for my own reaction. This joy and jubilation just bubbled out of me and I had trouble stopping the tears from flowing. He sat there at the dining room table, ears sticking out, with a smile that threatened to split has face in two. You would be hard pressed to find two happier people.
And so I am again reminded of the incredible strength of the weak, the power of those we think are powerless. Michael, this slow, stubborn man with Down Syndrome, can stir emotions in me that very few can. He can convince me that life is rich, that love can heal, that God exists. He can work miracles.
But Mike got even older in a hurry back in December, his deteriorating hips all of a sudden failing him, pneumonia refusing to let go its grip, sleep overtaking him between bites of lunch. Then falls during the night, even seizures and mini-strokes. He went by ambulance to the hospital on January 5th and most of us were pretty sure he was leaving for the last time.
We sat vigil by his bedside in the hospital for weeks as he underwent test after test, unable to eat or talk or even wake up, his respirations dropping to five or six a minute at times. We prepared ourselves and everyone in the community for what we felt was coming.
But what was coming wasn't what we expected. Michael slowly began to gain ground, first trying to talk a little, then laugh, then eat, and finally even hold our arms and walk around. So then the fight was on to convince the people with power that Mike should come home, that we could, and wanted to, manage his care. That this was where he belonged.
It was a long slow process that culminated yesterday with his return. When I walked into the house to visit him after he arrived I wasn't prepared for my own reaction. This joy and jubilation just bubbled out of me and I had trouble stopping the tears from flowing. He sat there at the dining room table, ears sticking out, with a smile that threatened to split has face in two. You would be hard pressed to find two happier people.
And so I am again reminded of the incredible strength of the weak, the power of those we think are powerless. Michael, this slow, stubborn man with Down Syndrome, can stir emotions in me that very few can. He can convince me that life is rich, that love can heal, that God exists. He can work miracles.
Monday, January 21, 2008
An unlikely teacher
At first glance, Angela can be mistakenly defined by her limitations - big motorized wheelchair, very limited upper body mobility, total dependence on others for personal care, limited vocabulary and simplistic speech patterns, often difficult to understand.
But Angela is a woman of tremendous capacity, and it is this capacity - for generosity, for contemplation, for joy - that really defines Angela. A few weeks ago Angela attended the first meeting of a community prayer circle. This group has been formed as a place where the needs and intentions of the community are held in prayer in a very deliberate way by people with a gift for this kind of intentional prayer. When Angela returned to work after the meeting, her supervisor asked her what she had been doing for the morning. After a short pause, Angela replied simply, "I was talking to God." I am sure that God was listening.
Then last week, there was a serious crisis at Angela's house involving one of Angela's housemates. Angela experienced genuine emotional trauma during the incident, and at times even her physical safety was in danger. After the incident was over and the police had left (along with Angela's housemate, Arthur) I sat with the people who were involved, many of whom were in shock, crying and upset. I talked a little about what had happened, and then quite honestly admitted, "I don't know what to do now." Angela, perhaps the person who had most seriously affected by Arthur's outburst, suggested, "Now we say a prayer for Arthur."
St. Paul says that God chose the weak to confound the strong, chose what is considered foolish to shame the wise. In Angela, and so many others, St. Paul's words ring true.
But Angela is a woman of tremendous capacity, and it is this capacity - for generosity, for contemplation, for joy - that really defines Angela. A few weeks ago Angela attended the first meeting of a community prayer circle. This group has been formed as a place where the needs and intentions of the community are held in prayer in a very deliberate way by people with a gift for this kind of intentional prayer. When Angela returned to work after the meeting, her supervisor asked her what she had been doing for the morning. After a short pause, Angela replied simply, "I was talking to God." I am sure that God was listening.
Then last week, there was a serious crisis at Angela's house involving one of Angela's housemates. Angela experienced genuine emotional trauma during the incident, and at times even her physical safety was in danger. After the incident was over and the police had left (along with Angela's housemate, Arthur) I sat with the people who were involved, many of whom were in shock, crying and upset. I talked a little about what had happened, and then quite honestly admitted, "I don't know what to do now." Angela, perhaps the person who had most seriously affected by Arthur's outburst, suggested, "Now we say a prayer for Arthur."
St. Paul says that God chose the weak to confound the strong, chose what is considered foolish to shame the wise. In Angela, and so many others, St. Paul's words ring true.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Two old hens!
Cathy and Janet sit close together, both smiling with anticipation, giggling a little, waiting for me to start asking questions. They are eager to tell the story of their friendship.
Janet, as she will proudly tell you, is the founder of our community. She arrived at Corinthian House on April 5, 1983, from her family home. Cathy just celebrated her 11th anniversary at L’Arche Cape Breton. Both are petite women with bright smiles, strong opinions, Down Syndrome, and unique senses of humour. They love a good cup of tea, an enthusiastic hug, eating out, and traditional Cape Breton music.
As we begin our interview, I start simply. "Well, here we are."
"Yup," says Janet, "two old hens!" She and Cathy immediately dissolve into laughter.
"Can we talk about your friendship?" I ask when they have calmed down.
"Of course," Janet replies. "We’re good friends, me and Cathy Brady."
"What do you do together?"
"Do? We’re friends, good friends."
"But what do you guys do when you are together?"
"Do together? We’re friends!"
I persist with my line of questioning. "But when you visit each other. Do you listen to music? Look at magazines? Joke around?"
Janet acknowledges that they do, in fact, enjoy these activities. But she goes back to her mantra, "We’re friends." All the while, Cathy is looking at Janet with what is clearly a look of love.
I start to feel a little frustrated, until I realize that Janet is not ignoring my question. I think she is trying to tell me that what she and Cathy do together is not really that important. What is important is the bond they share, the friendship. So I move on.
"What about teasing? Do you tease each other?"
Now Cathy chimes in, "Well, a little bit," she admits. Janet shares her annual Thanksgiving joke, where she looks through the window in the oven at the turkey roasting within and exclaims in mock horror, "Oh no! That’s my friend Cathy in there!"
"Hey, Janet, watch it!" scolds Cathy, and they dissolve into giggles again. Janet bursts into song, "Janet Moo-oo-oore, she’s a Presbyterian…" and a whole new round of giggles begins.
I can see that this interview is taking on a life of its own! I try to regain control. "How does Janet make you feel, Cathy?" I ask.
"Really happy," Cathy replies.
"Thank you, sweetie...chicken legs!"
"Hey, not me!"
The teasing picks up speed and enthusiasm. Cries of "chicken legs", "French fry", "Girl Guide", you name it. They are poking each other, laughing, threatening to call the cops. Time to clue things up.
"Is there anything else you guys would like to say before we finish?"
Cathy looks at Janet and is quiet for a second. "Janet Moore? I love you."
"I love you too, sweetheart."
They hug. I think that says it all.
Janet, as she will proudly tell you, is the founder of our community. She arrived at Corinthian House on April 5, 1983, from her family home. Cathy just celebrated her 11th anniversary at L’Arche Cape Breton. Both are petite women with bright smiles, strong opinions, Down Syndrome, and unique senses of humour. They love a good cup of tea, an enthusiastic hug, eating out, and traditional Cape Breton music.
As we begin our interview, I start simply. "Well, here we are."
"Yup," says Janet, "two old hens!" She and Cathy immediately dissolve into laughter.
"Can we talk about your friendship?" I ask when they have calmed down.
"Of course," Janet replies. "We’re good friends, me and Cathy Brady."
"What do you do together?"
"Do? We’re friends, good friends."
"But what do you guys do when you are together?"
"Do together? We’re friends!"
I persist with my line of questioning. "But when you visit each other. Do you listen to music? Look at magazines? Joke around?"
Janet acknowledges that they do, in fact, enjoy these activities. But she goes back to her mantra, "We’re friends." All the while, Cathy is looking at Janet with what is clearly a look of love.
I start to feel a little frustrated, until I realize that Janet is not ignoring my question. I think she is trying to tell me that what she and Cathy do together is not really that important. What is important is the bond they share, the friendship. So I move on.
"What about teasing? Do you tease each other?"
Now Cathy chimes in, "Well, a little bit," she admits. Janet shares her annual Thanksgiving joke, where she looks through the window in the oven at the turkey roasting within and exclaims in mock horror, "Oh no! That’s my friend Cathy in there!"
"Hey, Janet, watch it!" scolds Cathy, and they dissolve into giggles again. Janet bursts into song, "Janet Moo-oo-oore, she’s a Presbyterian…" and a whole new round of giggles begins.
I can see that this interview is taking on a life of its own! I try to regain control. "How does Janet make you feel, Cathy?" I ask.
"Really happy," Cathy replies.
"Thank you, sweetie...chicken legs!"
"Hey, not me!"
The teasing picks up speed and enthusiasm. Cries of "chicken legs", "French fry", "Girl Guide", you name it. They are poking each other, laughing, threatening to call the cops. Time to clue things up.
"Is there anything else you guys would like to say before we finish?"
Cathy looks at Janet and is quiet for a second. "Janet Moore? I love you."
"I love you too, sweetheart."
They hug. I think that says it all.
Friday, November 30, 2007
Old friends are the best friends...
Last week I was lucky enough to travel to Alberta for no other reason than to have some time for myself. I spent a few rowdy days in the big city with friends and family, and then a few days of extreme quiet with myself and God and a long-time mentor.
People in my circle here in Cape Breton are probably tired of hearing me talk about what a fabulous trip I had! My week had just the right amount of everything - food and drink, sleep and exercise, fun and contemplation, you name it. But I think what really made the time so rich was that just about everyone I saw was someone who has known me for a long time, and who knows my story in a very personal way. Even if some of those people I had not seen for 2 or 3 (or 10!)years, there was still a deep sense of comfort and safety in their company. For that I am grateful.
And, as always, it made me think. In particular it made me think about the importance of being known, of being surrounded by people who know my story and who can listen to me and understand me without needing an explanation. They may not know the recent details of my life, but that, somehow doesn't seem to matter. It made me reflect, too, on the importance of knowing my own story, of being proud of it, of dwelling in it and allowing it to enrich my life and the lives of those who are important to me.
And so what of the people in my life who, due to their disability, cannot articulate their own story? How do they take this ownership of who they are and where they have come from? How do they, when the people around them change so often, have this feeling of being known in a deep and intimate way, of being understood without needing to explain?
I am so aware of the privilege - and the responsibility - that I carry in my long term commitment to the people of disability in my life. I am more and more conscious of how those of us who support people need to learn how to help them tell and celebrate their stories. We need to recognize our role in revealing the "unrepeatable grace" in the life of each person.
People in my circle here in Cape Breton are probably tired of hearing me talk about what a fabulous trip I had! My week had just the right amount of everything - food and drink, sleep and exercise, fun and contemplation, you name it. But I think what really made the time so rich was that just about everyone I saw was someone who has known me for a long time, and who knows my story in a very personal way. Even if some of those people I had not seen for 2 or 3 (or 10!)years, there was still a deep sense of comfort and safety in their company. For that I am grateful.
And, as always, it made me think. In particular it made me think about the importance of being known, of being surrounded by people who know my story and who can listen to me and understand me without needing an explanation. They may not know the recent details of my life, but that, somehow doesn't seem to matter. It made me reflect, too, on the importance of knowing my own story, of being proud of it, of dwelling in it and allowing it to enrich my life and the lives of those who are important to me.
And so what of the people in my life who, due to their disability, cannot articulate their own story? How do they take this ownership of who they are and where they have come from? How do they, when the people around them change so often, have this feeling of being known in a deep and intimate way, of being understood without needing to explain?
I am so aware of the privilege - and the responsibility - that I carry in my long term commitment to the people of disability in my life. I am more and more conscious of how those of us who support people need to learn how to help them tell and celebrate their stories. We need to recognize our role in revealing the "unrepeatable grace" in the life of each person.
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
The sum of my parts
There has been a news story getting some coverage in Nova Scotia lately about a 21-year-old man with significant developmental and physical disabilities receiving treatment from the medical system. The debate is whether he should be treated as a child or an adult, given that he has, according to the news reports, "the body of a 12-year-old" and "the mind of a toddler". The stories stirred profound sadness and even anger in me. My husband wrote a letter to the radio station after hearing the report. I think it is worth sharing. My husband is quite a guy.
Here's what he wrote:
I was struck by your introduction today which referred to the 21-year old man as "having the mind of a toddler." A person is much more than the skills that they possess, but the concept of developmental age refers only to their skills in various areas, usually gross motor, fine motor, language, cognitive, and social. There are a number of ways in which this is an inaccurate method of summing up an individual's age. I know from personal experience that the same individual often has a wide range of "ages" in terms of different categories of activity: one person might have the cognitive skills of a five-year old but the social skills of a teenager. They might have the reading comprehension of a six-year old but the verbal skills of a ten-year old.
All the different facets of a person's development tend to be summed up by one average age, which really doesn't say much about them as a person. When we use these developmental ages outside their medical context, there is a tendency to understand them as referring to an individual's overall maturity, but that is not what they are designed to do. Even in terms of skill development, making one's way in the world is much more complicated than the specific skills one possesses. If a person had the skills of a six-year old, but they had those skills for thirty or forty years, they would learn to do a lot of things and think in a lot of ways that a six-year old child doesn't.
Furthermore, there is no way to measure a person's emotional or spiritual maturity, and that is probably what most of us think of when we refer to a person's age, or their equivalent age. People with developmental disabilities often have gifts of great spiritual or emotional maturity, though in some cases they may not know how to talk, dress, or feed themselves. Much of this is influenced by the way they are perceived and related to by those around them. The use of a phrase like "the mind of a toddler" contributes to the pervasive and inaccurate idea that people with intellectual disabilities are over-sized children. People with disabilities are not children -- they are capable of maturing, developing, and contributing to society as the adults they are.
I think this is the greatest tragedy of the story you covered today. It is clear that the people who are closest to this man -- his doctors, his nurses, and even his parents, see him as an eternal child. Imagine if all your life, all of the people who surround you saw you as a child, with the simplicity of a child, the desires of a child, and the incapacities of a child. Would this not limit your ability to reach your full potential as a mature human being?
Here's what he wrote:
I was struck by your introduction today which referred to the 21-year old man as "having the mind of a toddler." A person is much more than the skills that they possess, but the concept of developmental age refers only to their skills in various areas, usually gross motor, fine motor, language, cognitive, and social. There are a number of ways in which this is an inaccurate method of summing up an individual's age. I know from personal experience that the same individual often has a wide range of "ages" in terms of different categories of activity: one person might have the cognitive skills of a five-year old but the social skills of a teenager. They might have the reading comprehension of a six-year old but the verbal skills of a ten-year old.
All the different facets of a person's development tend to be summed up by one average age, which really doesn't say much about them as a person. When we use these developmental ages outside their medical context, there is a tendency to understand them as referring to an individual's overall maturity, but that is not what they are designed to do. Even in terms of skill development, making one's way in the world is much more complicated than the specific skills one possesses. If a person had the skills of a six-year old, but they had those skills for thirty or forty years, they would learn to do a lot of things and think in a lot of ways that a six-year old child doesn't.
Furthermore, there is no way to measure a person's emotional or spiritual maturity, and that is probably what most of us think of when we refer to a person's age, or their equivalent age. People with developmental disabilities often have gifts of great spiritual or emotional maturity, though in some cases they may not know how to talk, dress, or feed themselves. Much of this is influenced by the way they are perceived and related to by those around them. The use of a phrase like "the mind of a toddler" contributes to the pervasive and inaccurate idea that people with intellectual disabilities are over-sized children. People with disabilities are not children -- they are capable of maturing, developing, and contributing to society as the adults they are.
I think this is the greatest tragedy of the story you covered today. It is clear that the people who are closest to this man -- his doctors, his nurses, and even his parents, see him as an eternal child. Imagine if all your life, all of the people who surround you saw you as a child, with the simplicity of a child, the desires of a child, and the incapacities of a child. Would this not limit your ability to reach your full potential as a mature human being?
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Children learn what they live
To say that childhood experiences shape our lives is, I suppose, stating the obvious. As the poet Gerard Manley Hopkins observed (in less inclusive times) "The child is father to the man". I have been ruminating on this fact more than usual over the past little while.
Right now there are seven kids being raised in our community of L'Arche. Seven kids, all under six, three of them less than three months old, whose early lives are being lived out in what is unfortunately a very unusual environment. Seven kids who daily encounter wheelchairs, sign language, foreign accents, many shades of skin colour, and grown-ups who need lots of help with lots of things. When my daughter gets home from school (and has her ritual milk and cookies) she trots off next door to visit Amy, Angela, Rod, Haley, and the rest of the folks at Korban. In the mix are two wheelchairs, two people who don't speak, three people who grew up in big institutions for people with disabilities...and that's just the tip of the iceberg. Maggie doesn't see this as anything out of the ordinary. But surely it is!
I wonder how the little kids growing up in this magical, crazy place will turn out? Will they be a part of a societal sea-change, a revolution that will reveal the gifts of people with disabilities and enable them to claim their rightful place in the world? Will they continue to value difference as a part of what makes the world turn in the right direction? Will they take Jesus back from the hands of the fundamentalists and use his words and example to make the world a more compassionate and welcoming place?
Right now Maggie wants to grow up and "live in a L'Arche community". Sounds pretty good to me.
Right now there are seven kids being raised in our community of L'Arche. Seven kids, all under six, three of them less than three months old, whose early lives are being lived out in what is unfortunately a very unusual environment. Seven kids who daily encounter wheelchairs, sign language, foreign accents, many shades of skin colour, and grown-ups who need lots of help with lots of things. When my daughter gets home from school (and has her ritual milk and cookies) she trots off next door to visit Amy, Angela, Rod, Haley, and the rest of the folks at Korban. In the mix are two wheelchairs, two people who don't speak, three people who grew up in big institutions for people with disabilities...and that's just the tip of the iceberg. Maggie doesn't see this as anything out of the ordinary. But surely it is!
I wonder how the little kids growing up in this magical, crazy place will turn out? Will they be a part of a societal sea-change, a revolution that will reveal the gifts of people with disabilities and enable them to claim their rightful place in the world? Will they continue to value difference as a part of what makes the world turn in the right direction? Will they take Jesus back from the hands of the fundamentalists and use his words and example to make the world a more compassionate and welcoming place?
Right now Maggie wants to grow up and "live in a L'Arche community". Sounds pretty good to me.
Friday, September 21, 2007
She's the Bomb!
We have company this week. Our friend Mary is staying with us until the end of the month. Mary is a little woman with a big presence. She's closing in on 60, with a great smile, an eye for detail, and an appreciation for the absurd. She also has Down Syndrome, rides in a wheelchair most of the time, and doesn't hear at all. She communicates with a heavily adapted version of sign language that accommodates her arthritic fingers, complimented by some pretty clear body language.
Mary is a regular visitor at our house, and it is such a treat to welcome her, in particular because of how much she and the kids enjoy one another. The boys are very physical beings, always creating some kind of spectacle, be it wrestling under a blanket in the middle of the living room floor, balancing sideways on the back of the couch, or moving their high chairs across the floor by ferociously bouncing up and down during meals. This kind of entertainment is right up Mary's alley and she watches, fascinated, with an amused smile tinged with just a hint of disapproval. The boys seem to know that she loves them, pointing to her and announcing her nickname in their husky, slurred little voices, "Bomber!"
Maggie is fascinated with Mary's communication style, and loves the challenge of trying to get her point across to Mary, as well as to decipher what Mary is trying to say.
And so Mary fits right in, rounding out our crazy family with her years of wisdom and peaceful, centering influence. At the end of the day when the kids are settled, she sits with me on the couch and smiles. She looks in my eyes and reminds me of our years of friendship and all that has changed for both of us since we were roommates many moons ago. Even though now I am all grown up (thanks, in large part, to Mary) I still feel like a kid in comparison to Mary's life and experience. She is like a silent mentor who, without saying a thing, reminds me of who I am and what is important.
Mary is a regular visitor at our house, and it is such a treat to welcome her, in particular because of how much she and the kids enjoy one another. The boys are very physical beings, always creating some kind of spectacle, be it wrestling under a blanket in the middle of the living room floor, balancing sideways on the back of the couch, or moving their high chairs across the floor by ferociously bouncing up and down during meals. This kind of entertainment is right up Mary's alley and she watches, fascinated, with an amused smile tinged with just a hint of disapproval. The boys seem to know that she loves them, pointing to her and announcing her nickname in their husky, slurred little voices, "Bomber!"
Maggie is fascinated with Mary's communication style, and loves the challenge of trying to get her point across to Mary, as well as to decipher what Mary is trying to say.
And so Mary fits right in, rounding out our crazy family with her years of wisdom and peaceful, centering influence. At the end of the day when the kids are settled, she sits with me on the couch and smiles. She looks in my eyes and reminds me of our years of friendship and all that has changed for both of us since we were roommates many moons ago. Even though now I am all grown up (thanks, in large part, to Mary) I still feel like a kid in comparison to Mary's life and experience. She is like a silent mentor who, without saying a thing, reminds me of who I am and what is important.
Friday, September 14, 2007
Pinky Dinky Doo
Last week a student at Central Kings Rural High School in the Annapolis Valley, NS, arrived for his first day of Grade 9 excited about beginning a new year at a new school, and wearing a pink shirt. One might think the colour of his attire would be an irrelevant detail of the story, but sadly, this was not the case. The teenager was singled out by a small group of students and harassed about his wardrobe. The local papers politely described that he was called a "homosexual" and, along with being verbally abused and mocked, was threatened with physical violence.
Two Grade 12 students, David Shepherd and Travis Price, heard of the incident and took matters into their own hands. After school, they visited local stores and purchased 75 pink tank tops and an assortment of pink hats, scarves, armbands, and other accessories. They circulated word of their plan via the internet, and met fellow students before school the next day to hand out the duds. By the time school started on Thursday, approximately half of the 830 students at the school were wearing pink in support of the bullied student and the principles of human dignity and human rights.
Of course their actions completely turned the tables on the bullies, and spoke volumes to the victimized student of his value as a member of the school and his place among the student population.
I have not been able to stop thinking about these guys since I heard this story a couple of days ago. Talk about the Gandhian principles of truth and ahimsa and the peaceful resistance of Martin Luther King, Jr. These two high school students have made a profound and powerful statement, one that hopefully will be heard far and wide. As Silas commented, if you pass a car accident and you jump in to pull someone out of the vehicle, you'll be lauded as a hero. It takes a lot more courage to take a stand against your peers, especially when your peers are high school students!
John MacKnight describes true inclusion, true welcome, as "standing at the centre of our communities and saying, in a voice that can be heard at the margins, 'We need you'". These guys captured that voice with eloquence, and without violence. Good for them.
Two Grade 12 students, David Shepherd and Travis Price, heard of the incident and took matters into their own hands. After school, they visited local stores and purchased 75 pink tank tops and an assortment of pink hats, scarves, armbands, and other accessories. They circulated word of their plan via the internet, and met fellow students before school the next day to hand out the duds. By the time school started on Thursday, approximately half of the 830 students at the school were wearing pink in support of the bullied student and the principles of human dignity and human rights.
Of course their actions completely turned the tables on the bullies, and spoke volumes to the victimized student of his value as a member of the school and his place among the student population.
I have not been able to stop thinking about these guys since I heard this story a couple of days ago. Talk about the Gandhian principles of truth and ahimsa and the peaceful resistance of Martin Luther King, Jr. These two high school students have made a profound and powerful statement, one that hopefully will be heard far and wide. As Silas commented, if you pass a car accident and you jump in to pull someone out of the vehicle, you'll be lauded as a hero. It takes a lot more courage to take a stand against your peers, especially when your peers are high school students!
John MacKnight describes true inclusion, true welcome, as "standing at the centre of our communities and saying, in a voice that can be heard at the margins, 'We need you'". These guys captured that voice with eloquence, and without violence. Good for them.
Monday, September 10, 2007
A picture tells a thousand words
Last night I rearranged the pictures on the walls and mantles in our house, moving the old, outdated portraits of the kids and replacing them with the ones we had taken this summer. It's such a lovely chore - time to look at those old pictures and try to remember what the kids sounded like, what they did at each of those stages. And I am a bit of a framed photo junkie - Silas gets frustrated with that by times - all our blank wall space filled with pictures, all our flat surfaces covered in propped-up framed memories. But as my friend Brenda would have said, I can't help it; I was born that way.
When I rearranged things last night, I hung all the old portraits of the kids (we have them taken once a year) on the wall above the landing at the bottom of the stairs. So when I descended the stairs, bleary-eyed and bushy-haired, this morning, I was greeted by so many smiling faces of our three kids. Talk about starting your day off right.
The photos of the boys seemed especially poignant. My boys, Jacob and Josh, are twins, both with Down Syndrome, who we adopted when they were five months old. Their sweet, mischievous faces smiled out at me from behind the glass of the picture frames, reminding me of so much...getting the call from Children's Aid that there were twins - TWINS! - with Down Syndrome who needed a home...meeting them for the first time at their foster home when they were still sharing one crib...the times when we could plop them on a blanket in the middle of the living room floor and they would actually stay there, balancing on their bellies with their arms and legs outstretched like little airplanes...big sister Maggie singing "I love you forever..." to her brothers in their cribs at bedtime...the list is endless and fills me with warm feelings and gratitude.
And those memories stand out today because of something I read on Chewing the Fat, Dave Hingsburger's blog. (If you don't read this blog, you must. Trust me. The link is posted on the sidebar of my blog's front page.) Apparently, in Italy there is a recent case of a couple who were expecting twins, one of whom was discovered, in utero, to have Down Syndrome. So the couple chose to have that fetus aborted. After the abortion, the doctors discovered they had aborted the "wrong" baby. The "healthy" child was aborted and the child with Downs survived. So, of course, a second abortion was performed.
The tragedy described was the one of the mistakenly aborted "healthy" child, never given the chance to be born and thrive and live a productive life. This morning I looked at the photos of my beautiful boys and thought about the real tragedy. The tragedy of discrimination, the tragedy of the medical model of perfection, the tragedy of lives lost to what masquerades as progress.
When I rearranged things last night, I hung all the old portraits of the kids (we have them taken once a year) on the wall above the landing at the bottom of the stairs. So when I descended the stairs, bleary-eyed and bushy-haired, this morning, I was greeted by so many smiling faces of our three kids. Talk about starting your day off right.
The photos of the boys seemed especially poignant. My boys, Jacob and Josh, are twins, both with Down Syndrome, who we adopted when they were five months old. Their sweet, mischievous faces smiled out at me from behind the glass of the picture frames, reminding me of so much...getting the call from Children's Aid that there were twins - TWINS! - with Down Syndrome who needed a home...meeting them for the first time at their foster home when they were still sharing one crib...the times when we could plop them on a blanket in the middle of the living room floor and they would actually stay there, balancing on their bellies with their arms and legs outstretched like little airplanes...big sister Maggie singing "I love you forever..." to her brothers in their cribs at bedtime...the list is endless and fills me with warm feelings and gratitude.
And those memories stand out today because of something I read on Chewing the Fat, Dave Hingsburger's blog. (If you don't read this blog, you must. Trust me. The link is posted on the sidebar of my blog's front page.) Apparently, in Italy there is a recent case of a couple who were expecting twins, one of whom was discovered, in utero, to have Down Syndrome. So the couple chose to have that fetus aborted. After the abortion, the doctors discovered they had aborted the "wrong" baby. The "healthy" child was aborted and the child with Downs survived. So, of course, a second abortion was performed.
The tragedy described was the one of the mistakenly aborted "healthy" child, never given the chance to be born and thrive and live a productive life. This morning I looked at the photos of my beautiful boys and thought about the real tragedy. The tragedy of discrimination, the tragedy of the medical model of perfection, the tragedy of lives lost to what masquerades as progress.
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Rita and friends
This summer Janet turned 60. This is a big birthday for anyone, but for someone with Down Syndrome, already showing signs of Alzheimer's and other age-related health issues, and who has to date buried three close friends who also had Down Syndrome and who all died long before making it to 61, well, the significance of this milestone cannot be overstated. Add to that the fact that Janet begins counting down for her July birthday sometime in early August the preceding year and you get a sense of the level of enthusiasm we are dealing with!
Among the myriad of ways Janet celebrated her birthday this year was one particularly special event. Thanks to her friend Mary (it's good to have connections!) Janet and 10 of her closest friends were invited to Big Pond, Cape Breton, for lunch at Rita MacNeil's Tearoom. Now, the biscuits alone at Rita's Tearoom are sufficient to warrant a certain amount of eager anticipation. But Janet was not invited just for the biscuits. Janet was invited for lunch with the star of the show, Cape Breton's superstar, Rita MacNeil herself.
Like many people I know with Down Syndrome, Janet is a Rita MacNeil uber-fan. Her CD collection includes all Rita's titles, her wardrobe has Rita T-shirts in the double digits, the walls of her room are plastered with pictures of the Cape Breton singing sensation, and at any opportunity for a performance, Janet will find the closest thing to a microphone (a ladle, a rolling pin, a twig) and belt out "Working Man" with unequaled passion and gusto. Janet and I were fortunate enough to live together during the run of Rita's Friday night CBC TV variety show, "Rita and Friends". Friday nights from 8-9pm were sacrosanct. We gathered around the TV in the basement, popcorn at the ready, listening to Rita's powerful singing and sweet, self-conscious banter with hushed reverence.
And now a "private audience" with Rita. Amazing.
I was touched to be invited by Janet to join her for this lunchtime event. Those of us who love Janet were more than a little apprehensive as we prepared for the celebration. Janet is getting old, and showing her age. As with so many people with Down Syndrome, dementia is slowly creeping in and stealing Janet's peace, her humour, her independence, her ability to enjoy life. Intense emotion can overwhelm her, and this day would surely be filled with that. Having to keep to a rigid schedule, once something she demanded and loved, can now leave her in tears. So we crossed our fingers, surrounded Janet with people she knows and who know her, and off we went.
The brilliant sun over the blue waters of the Bras d'Or as we drove through Eskasoni and East Bay seemed to be a good omen. We arrived at the Tearoom in good spirits, having sung along with Rita on the CD player the whole drive down. With a friend on each arm, Janet plodded up the ramp into the Tearoom and we presented ourselves to the waitress. There was a little confusion about who we were and when we were expected, so we wandered around as we waited for things to be sorted out.
Before long, Janet caught sight of Rita. She squinted up her eyes, as she often does to help her focus, and tilted her head slightly to one side as she worked to connect what she must have imagined was a mirage with what evidently was becoming a reality. As everything clicked into place, she quietly, and with a sense of disbelief and wonder, exclaimed, "Rita!" In a manner fitting her age and the occasion, Janet slowly walked toward her idol, looked closely into Rita's face to make sure she wasn't dreaming, then gently wrapped her arms around Rita's shoulders, placed her head on Rita's chest, and smiled. This smile did not dim or fade once during the two hours we spent with Rita at lunch!
And the lunch was lovely. Rita was an absolute gem, making small talk with our strange crew of friends. She had no trouble joining in Janet's typical teasing - "chicken legs", "old hen", "you're cracking up". Although Janet simply would not stand for anyone to call Rita an old hen!
Several times during lunch, Janet would gaze at the photo of Rita on the CD she clutched in her hand (a CD, incidentally, that Rita had given her, signed, as a birthday gift) and then look up at Rita, in the flesh, sitting right next to her at the table. This seemed to be a wonder that Janet could barely comprehend. And then she would tune into the music coming over the speakers, which was (of course) Rita MacNeil. She would look up at the speakers, at her CD, then again toward her host, in absolute amazement. This woman was even more incredible that Janet had imagined!
After a delicious lunch (which Rita graciously looked after - her treat) and what seemed like endless hugs, we prepared to leave. I linked Janet over to the guest book, where her shaking hand and deteriorating vision made it virtually impossible for her to write much. But she did her best, telling me she had written her name and "I love you, Rita." And on that note, we left to drive home.
I believe that we discover what is holy, sacred, mysterious, through our relationships with others, and those few hours with Janet were filled with holiness and mystery - and not just the mystery of how Rita could be sitting at our table and singing on the PA at the same time! But that visit to the Tearoom with Janet brought me back to what is means to live a life of gratitude, to be present to each moment, to embrace my own vulnerability and allow it to bring me closer to others instead of isolate me from them. And it opened me yet again to the gift of the life of a little woman who has, in ordinary ways, helped to make my life extraordinary. Thank you, Janet.
Among the myriad of ways Janet celebrated her birthday this year was one particularly special event. Thanks to her friend Mary (it's good to have connections!) Janet and 10 of her closest friends were invited to Big Pond, Cape Breton, for lunch at Rita MacNeil's Tearoom. Now, the biscuits alone at Rita's Tearoom are sufficient to warrant a certain amount of eager anticipation. But Janet was not invited just for the biscuits. Janet was invited for lunch with the star of the show, Cape Breton's superstar, Rita MacNeil herself.
Like many people I know with Down Syndrome, Janet is a Rita MacNeil uber-fan. Her CD collection includes all Rita's titles, her wardrobe has Rita T-shirts in the double digits, the walls of her room are plastered with pictures of the Cape Breton singing sensation, and at any opportunity for a performance, Janet will find the closest thing to a microphone (a ladle, a rolling pin, a twig) and belt out "Working Man" with unequaled passion and gusto. Janet and I were fortunate enough to live together during the run of Rita's Friday night CBC TV variety show, "Rita and Friends". Friday nights from 8-9pm were sacrosanct. We gathered around the TV in the basement, popcorn at the ready, listening to Rita's powerful singing and sweet, self-conscious banter with hushed reverence.
And now a "private audience" with Rita. Amazing.
I was touched to be invited by Janet to join her for this lunchtime event. Those of us who love Janet were more than a little apprehensive as we prepared for the celebration. Janet is getting old, and showing her age. As with so many people with Down Syndrome, dementia is slowly creeping in and stealing Janet's peace, her humour, her independence, her ability to enjoy life. Intense emotion can overwhelm her, and this day would surely be filled with that. Having to keep to a rigid schedule, once something she demanded and loved, can now leave her in tears. So we crossed our fingers, surrounded Janet with people she knows and who know her, and off we went.
The brilliant sun over the blue waters of the Bras d'Or as we drove through Eskasoni and East Bay seemed to be a good omen. We arrived at the Tearoom in good spirits, having sung along with Rita on the CD player the whole drive down. With a friend on each arm, Janet plodded up the ramp into the Tearoom and we presented ourselves to the waitress. There was a little confusion about who we were and when we were expected, so we wandered around as we waited for things to be sorted out.
Before long, Janet caught sight of Rita. She squinted up her eyes, as she often does to help her focus, and tilted her head slightly to one side as she worked to connect what she must have imagined was a mirage with what evidently was becoming a reality. As everything clicked into place, she quietly, and with a sense of disbelief and wonder, exclaimed, "Rita!" In a manner fitting her age and the occasion, Janet slowly walked toward her idol, looked closely into Rita's face to make sure she wasn't dreaming, then gently wrapped her arms around Rita's shoulders, placed her head on Rita's chest, and smiled. This smile did not dim or fade once during the two hours we spent with Rita at lunch!
And the lunch was lovely. Rita was an absolute gem, making small talk with our strange crew of friends. She had no trouble joining in Janet's typical teasing - "chicken legs", "old hen", "you're cracking up". Although Janet simply would not stand for anyone to call Rita an old hen!
Several times during lunch, Janet would gaze at the photo of Rita on the CD she clutched in her hand (a CD, incidentally, that Rita had given her, signed, as a birthday gift) and then look up at Rita, in the flesh, sitting right next to her at the table. This seemed to be a wonder that Janet could barely comprehend. And then she would tune into the music coming over the speakers, which was (of course) Rita MacNeil. She would look up at the speakers, at her CD, then again toward her host, in absolute amazement. This woman was even more incredible that Janet had imagined!
After a delicious lunch (which Rita graciously looked after - her treat) and what seemed like endless hugs, we prepared to leave. I linked Janet over to the guest book, where her shaking hand and deteriorating vision made it virtually impossible for her to write much. But she did her best, telling me she had written her name and "I love you, Rita." And on that note, we left to drive home.
I believe that we discover what is holy, sacred, mysterious, through our relationships with others, and those few hours with Janet were filled with holiness and mystery - and not just the mystery of how Rita could be sitting at our table and singing on the PA at the same time! But that visit to the Tearoom with Janet brought me back to what is means to live a life of gratitude, to be present to each moment, to embrace my own vulnerability and allow it to bring me closer to others instead of isolate me from them. And it opened me yet again to the gift of the life of a little woman who has, in ordinary ways, helped to make my life extraordinary. Thank you, Janet.
Friday, September 7, 2007
Possibilities...
This summer I came upon a T-shirt with the slogan "Nobody cares about your blog". This may or may not be the case, but in any event I persist in my endeavours to share my life and my thoughts with others. My motivation is not to elevate myself or my own experiences to something worthy of admiration - or even interest! Instead, I simply recognize the unique situation I am in as a member of a L'Arche community and the parent of two kids with disabilities. I know this puts me in the path of stories and experiences not everyone encounters or notices. It opens my ears and my eyes to unlikely teachers. It helps me to live a grateful, reflective, sometimes even contemplative life. I think it gives me something to say, and so I want to say it.
The following piece was written by my husband Silas for the August 2006 issue of Am Furan, the newsletter of L'Arche Cape Breton. I wish I had written it! It deserves to be shared.
“Dad, can we talk about possibilities again?” “You mean disabilities?”
Raising the little community of my family inside the big community of L’Arche offers some unique opportunities. I hope I am learning to make the most of them.
I’ve always been proud of the difference between my daughter’s experience of disability and the experience I had as a child. Kids with disabilities were not integrated into my elementary school, and students with disabilities in my high school spent their days in a special room. None of them ever came out and none of us went in. Naturally, I learned to be suspicious, even afraid, of people who looked, sounded, and acted different.
My daughter Maggie, at three years of age, has a couple of dozen friends she sees each week who each have a developmental disability. She knows people who use wheelchairs or walkers, people who don’t speak, grownups who need help with things like eating or getting around. She knows that people are different, as she knows who in her family is left or right-handed, or whose hair is straight or curly. But she has never heard of “disability” as a way of categorizing people.
But lately my wife and I have questioned this innocence. Maggie has always known that she grew inside her mother’s belly, but that her younger brothers grew inside someone else’s belly. She knows that we adopted her brothers. Why doesn’t she know that they have Down Syndrome? As Josh and Jacob grow up, won’t they, and she, do better if we raise them up to be conscious and proud of their difference?
To repeat a cliché, no-one gives you a manual when you have kids. How could I talk about disability in a way that a three-year-old would understand? Moreover, how could I talk about disability in a way that didn’t make it sound like a disease? Even the word, “disability”, means something is lacking, something is wrong with a person.
I know how much richness has come into my life because of people with developmental “dis-”abilities. I know how I’ve learned to think differently, to feel better, to relate to myself and to others on a deeper level, because of the relationships I have with people with disabilities. I don’t believe disability is a problem to be fixed. I believe it is a gift our whole society yearns for, but which most of us don’t know how to unwrap. But how to explain that to my three-year-old?
It was easy to explain disability. I talked about Buddy and his wheelchair, and how he has a disability because his legs aren’t good at walking. Then I talked about the people she knows who have Down Syndrome, particularly her brothers and Janet Moore. Her brothers took a long time to learn how to walk, and they only know a few words. Janet is a grown-up but she needs help to get up the stairs to our house, and she doesn’t know how to read a story for Maggie. But what about the positive side?
Here’s the best I could come up with: “Every week when Janet comes to our house she gives me a hug, doesn’t she? There aren’t many 50-year-old women I know who give me a hug every time they see me. But I know a lot of people with Down Syndrome, and almost all of them are really good at hugging. So that’s something that’s nice about having Down Syndrome.”
It didn’t really seem like a fair trade: the ability to read and to get around by yourself for a few hugs. I felt my explanation was stumbling. But then, after a pause and a distraction, Maggie brought the conversation around again: “Dad, can we talk about possibilities again?”
It took me a minute but then I caught it: “Ah, you mean disabilities?” “Yeah, possibilities.”
What a wonderful pun. Even if it happened by accident, and in spite of my explanation, I knew that my message had gotten through.
The following piece was written by my husband Silas for the August 2006 issue of Am Furan, the newsletter of L'Arche Cape Breton. I wish I had written it! It deserves to be shared.
“Dad, can we talk about possibilities again?” “You mean disabilities?”
Raising the little community of my family inside the big community of L’Arche offers some unique opportunities. I hope I am learning to make the most of them.
I’ve always been proud of the difference between my daughter’s experience of disability and the experience I had as a child. Kids with disabilities were not integrated into my elementary school, and students with disabilities in my high school spent their days in a special room. None of them ever came out and none of us went in. Naturally, I learned to be suspicious, even afraid, of people who looked, sounded, and acted different.
My daughter Maggie, at three years of age, has a couple of dozen friends she sees each week who each have a developmental disability. She knows people who use wheelchairs or walkers, people who don’t speak, grownups who need help with things like eating or getting around. She knows that people are different, as she knows who in her family is left or right-handed, or whose hair is straight or curly. But she has never heard of “disability” as a way of categorizing people.
But lately my wife and I have questioned this innocence. Maggie has always known that she grew inside her mother’s belly, but that her younger brothers grew inside someone else’s belly. She knows that we adopted her brothers. Why doesn’t she know that they have Down Syndrome? As Josh and Jacob grow up, won’t they, and she, do better if we raise them up to be conscious and proud of their difference?
To repeat a cliché, no-one gives you a manual when you have kids. How could I talk about disability in a way that a three-year-old would understand? Moreover, how could I talk about disability in a way that didn’t make it sound like a disease? Even the word, “disability”, means something is lacking, something is wrong with a person.
I know how much richness has come into my life because of people with developmental “dis-”abilities. I know how I’ve learned to think differently, to feel better, to relate to myself and to others on a deeper level, because of the relationships I have with people with disabilities. I don’t believe disability is a problem to be fixed. I believe it is a gift our whole society yearns for, but which most of us don’t know how to unwrap. But how to explain that to my three-year-old?
It was easy to explain disability. I talked about Buddy and his wheelchair, and how he has a disability because his legs aren’t good at walking. Then I talked about the people she knows who have Down Syndrome, particularly her brothers and Janet Moore. Her brothers took a long time to learn how to walk, and they only know a few words. Janet is a grown-up but she needs help to get up the stairs to our house, and she doesn’t know how to read a story for Maggie. But what about the positive side?
Here’s the best I could come up with: “Every week when Janet comes to our house she gives me a hug, doesn’t she? There aren’t many 50-year-old women I know who give me a hug every time they see me. But I know a lot of people with Down Syndrome, and almost all of them are really good at hugging. So that’s something that’s nice about having Down Syndrome.”
It didn’t really seem like a fair trade: the ability to read and to get around by yourself for a few hugs. I felt my explanation was stumbling. But then, after a pause and a distraction, Maggie brought the conversation around again: “Dad, can we talk about possibilities again?”
It took me a minute but then I caught it: “Ah, you mean disabilities?” “Yeah, possibilities.”
What a wonderful pun. Even if it happened by accident, and in spite of my explanation, I knew that my message had gotten through.
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